I cannot believe it is almost Thanksgiving...recalling my previous blog I had mentioned that I wasn't too certain how often I would be blogging after being cast in Les Mis; I didn't realize it would turn into months of no blogging at all. But no matter how long you've been away, if there is something you love, you'll eventually come back to it. And here I am. I am going to attempt to recap my life over the last few months in this
post so I pray it doesn't go on for pages. Forgive me if it does, but
I'll do my best to keep it as straight forward and to the point as
possible...So I'm going to just dive right in!
I have never been so happy to be back involved with musical theater. It's difficult to always reflect on why you stop doing something that makes you happy, but for several reasons I let it go without fully understanding how greatly it would affect me. The entire act of singing and being on stage has truly breathed life into me...but in a completely new way. Granted, I thought I would find the same feelings of bliss and glee that music brought into my life before and while there are those same feelings it is much different for me now.
After being away from it for so long and stepping back into the mix as an adult, with a better and rounder insight on life mind you, I have discovered this deeply new and awakened feeling of satisfaction that is so alive inside of me. I suppose the word that best describes it is passion. And although I thought I understood the meaning of that word before I've never connected it to music in this way ever. In short, I've never felt more free since getting tangled up with music again.
The other reason I felt like blogging tonight was because the holiday season is upon us and I've been seeing a lot of friends and family post what they are thankful for every day on Facebook. It's sweet, really, and while I haven't posted it on Facebook I'd like to talk about it here. A few years ago I lost 2 very good friends, both within a year of each other. Their lives were drastically shortened and I often wonder where they would be in their lives now as adults...I know it's probably more damaging to think like that but it's human nature, I guess. And I also find myself thinking about the circles of friends who knew these two amazing individuals. And while we either went different directions or those friendships altogether faded, I still smile when I think about them and I wish them well in their lives.
But because I have lost touch with those people who knew my friends, I have caught myself staring into space (on many occasions) thinking about them by myself. But today I shook myself from the lucid daydreams and I began to think about all of my other friends who are still here and who are ever dependable and close to me like family. I live a wonderful life and it is filled with wonderful people. I will always remember my friends I lost and I will always be sorry I wasn't present because I feel as though one action could have prevented another. But I am eternally thankful for knowing them and I am grateful for this moment in time, with the family and friends who are still present, that defines life as we know it.
Well, because this is a food blog, you're probably guessing I went home and attempted to cook it out? Well, the attempt was there...Ian actually made dinner tonight. (I was going to lie and say I cooked but I have this crazy guilt about not giving credit where credit is due...and Ian deserves the credit because he is an AMAZING cook. I think he won't admit to it because he knows how much I love to cook for him. But darn't, I need everyone to know!)
Anyhow, I bought the ingredients but he prepared and grilled everything. It was a beautiful brioche bun holding a burger stuffed with bleu
cheese and then drizzled with a barbeque aioli. Muah! (I would post pictures
but I don't have any to post...I ate it too quickly.) I really would have cooked tonight but I am just so exhausted and I am feeling like I need to take a minor break. I just need to take some time for myself and spend some time with my family and good friends. I suppose Thanksgiving is coming up at exactly the time I need it to most. Funny how that happens?
